To be or not to be? The history is simple, once worked with the woman which son suffered from ДЦП. He suffered in loneliness, in a children's boarding school, therefore did not see it never. When I have learnt, have tested a shock. How it is possible to refuse the child? And she has explained to me as. Mother the single, with one healthy child and the second patient. To help there is nobody. On a court yard 90. Disability pensions scanty. To choose, as a matter of fact, there is nothing. It is possible to leave the child of the house, to leave work, roll down in poverty and to ship there both children. It is possible to define the son in a boarding school, to work on two rates, to raise more or less in a prosperity of the senior and regularly to visit the younger. I will underline - not refusing from it. She has chosen the second variant. I was too young, and understand it could not. Not so learnt us in the childhood.
Now on a court yard 2000, the second decade has gone. Disability pensions all same scanty. Children of invalids is born as much. Has changed nothing. Only I became more senior. Has got acquainted with many parents who are bringing up such children. I respect and do not understand. I do not understand, how forces as they maintain round-the-clock, daily, annual stay on a post suffice them. Stay without the right to holiday, without hope, that, here, the child will grow up and becomes quite independent. Stay under slanting sights of neighbours and suspicious questions of workers соцстраха. Listened to stories of these people, looked in their persons and felt animal pleasure. I was not present with them. Before me there was no in full growth a question: to struggle or surrender? To leave or give? It is assured is very terrible choice. And everyone does it in loneliness. And then as in loneliness bears cargo of the made decision. Whatever it was. All life.
Nadejda Degtyareva, photo by Valerii Corcimari.
The signature under a photo: "This kid from city specialised children's home never saw adults without white dressing gowns..."